Oh, where do I start, and what do I write? Time has flown, and in the midst of everything I’ve gotten too busy. And God is reminding me of this verse:
“But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
Luke 10: 40
In the beginning of this year I had a wonderful visit from my brother and another adopted brother, Daniel. We had a wonderful time. My brother and I caught up on some good quality brother – sister time. It was wonderful to show him around.
We went to visit one of the families of our girls.
After that my life was put on fast forward. School assignments and revision, office work, visits to the children at home, trips to Nairobi, curriculum to develop, e – mails to write. And I was becoming stressed. So much was needed from me, but I was running out of the energy needed to accomplish the task.
My body also detected stress and I fell sick. That was a one long month of not feeling well and not feeling like myself. But in that time, God was teaching me something, actually a couple things.
- He knows what I need
God knew me in my mother’s womb. He knows me inside out. There is no one that knows me like my Father in Heaven. He showed this to me in a very real experience.
I had other guests coming from home, some of them were coming to go with Bishop to Turkana and Leanord & Lucille, another set of parents to me, were coming to see me. The day of arrival, I was planning to go to the airport, but had woken up feeling terrible. The Charmaine in me said, I’ll push myself and I’ll go. But someone much wiser, advised me to stay home, for some particular reason. On their way home, they dropped by to see me, and to me shock, my best friend Amanda had come along. Only God knew how much that meant to me, and how much I needed that, because I had been so discouraged the time I had been unwell. It was impeccable timing. I thank God for this blessing, she also came at a time, that we were busy in the office and we needed an extra hand. And for sure, she was the hand we needed. I give God the glory. I thank God for the friends and family that prayed for me and encouraged me. Thank you so much! May God bless you and fulfill the desires of your heart!
- To “Be Still”
But not only does God know what one need, He wants us to be like Mary in Luke 10. When Martha was rushing around the kitchen, preparing the best food for Jesus, Mary chose the ONE thing that was important, sitting at the feet of Jesus.
Martha was busy doing good. Truly, what is wrong with preparing the best food and serving Jesus? But how many times are we so busy doing good, that we don’t have enough time to spend with our Saviour.
I so often can identify with Martha. I remember when I was a little girl, I enjoyed helping mom clean the house and washing the dishes, but my sister was the opposite and she was enjoying herself outside with Dad. Martha got frustrated at Mary, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me alone to serve?” I also got frustrated at my sister, because I often was the one washing the dishes, I felt I was left to serve alone.
As I have now grown into a young lady, I still have the busy spirit of wanting to do good with the human tendency to forget the one who called me. This year as life was getting too busy, Amanda was a messenger for her dear sister Michelle’s family to give me a book by the name of Having a Mary Spirit in a Martha World. Thank you! This is exactly what I needed in this point of my life. I have been saying, with school I don’t have time to read other books, but I have realized that I’ve had the wrong attitude. This book has been ministering to me, and teaching me that despite all the craziness in my life, of which some I need to let go, there is time to “Be Still” and sit at the feet of Jesus.
It is through sitting at His feet, that God is speaking to me through His word and giving me peace, joy, strength, and wisdom to serve His dear little children. Let us not put the cart before the horse and try serving without spending time with God.
Last month, we went to visit some children at home with Leanord & Lucille, and oh my, despite my lost voice that day, I went home encouraged.
The little unhappy, fearful girl is now confident, laughing and smiling.
The boy who couldn’t concentrate, write and even thought to be special, was now talking, smiling and even wrote his name. I won’t forget how he asked me “Charmaine, msaidi kufunga kamba. ~ Charmaine, help me tie my shoelace.” I was leaving, but I immediately stopped, and bent down to tie his shoes, because this was the first time he was actually talking to me. It seems like something little, but with this boy it is growth.
The oldest sister was shy and quiet, but now she is opening up and learning that there is more to life than struggle.
Verses that God is revealing to me
And when Jesus heard it, He said to them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous, but sinners.”
“But Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me and do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of Heaven.”
“And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or children or lands, for my names sake, will receive a hundredfold and will inherit eternal life.”
“Blessed is the man who trusts in the Lord, whose trust is the Lord, He is life a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the streams, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.”
Jeremiah 17: 7-8
“One gives freely, yet grows all the richer; another withholds what he should give, and only suffers want. Whoever brings blessing will be enriched, and one who waters will himself be watered.”
Proverbs 11:24 – 25
“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh. Is anything too hard for me?”
Jeremiah 32: 27
“If your pour yourself out for the hungry and satisfy the desires of the afflicted then shall your light rise in darkness and your gloom be as the noonday. And the Lord will guide you continually and satisfy your desire in scorched places and make your bones strong; and you shall be like a watered garden, like a spring of water, whose waters do not fail, and your ancient ruins shall be rebuilt; you shall raise up the foundations of many generations; you shall be called the repairer of the breach, the restorer of streets to dwell in.”
Isaiah 58: 10 – 12
“It is He who made the earth by His power, who established the world by His wisdom, and by His understanding stretched out the heavens. When He utters His voice, there is a tumult of waters in the Heavens, and He makes the mist rise from the ends of the earth, He makes lightening for the rain and brings forth wind from His storehouses.”
Jeremiah 10: 12 – 13
I want to appreciate all of you that are supporting me through prayer, finances and notes/cards of encouragement. May God richly bless you. You are being used by God to transform children’s lives. Colossians 1: 9 -12