A Struggle of Survival

Oh, my heart breaks. Why, have I always had food on the table, when some people, especially children, go without food for days?

“God, I don’t understand.”

On my walk to work this morning, I walk past a pile of garbage. I’ve walked past it so many times, but this time its different.

2 boys, maybe 12 years old, with a bag, obviously for things they find on garbage piles, walk up to this garbage pile. They are looking for food, or for something they can sell to get food. The one boy sees something and quickly grabs a bag with 2 pieces of bread, probably thrown away because it was moldy or something. He sees me. “Mzungu” White person. I want to make him smile, so I give him a smile, and reply with a Kenyan greeting “Sasa”. I keep walking, but as I’m walking away, I hear a boy saying “Kutupatia chakula” meaning give us food. And oh, my heart breaks. I don’t know what to do or say, so I continue walking.

I continued walking, but I haven’t forgotten.

I’m reading a book “Scared” written by Tom Davis. A novel about a photojournalist, who is a given a last assignment to keep his job. This assignment takes him to Swaziland, where he meets a girl named Adanna. Addana is a young orphan fighting for survival against tragedy and disease. She goes looking for food, and is so desperate she looks for a kind man in a bar, but there is no kind man. Instead of a kind man; there is a man that attempts to rape her. Its hard to believe, but this does happen.

Next month we are visiting our children in Eastern Kenya. This is Kenya’s “cold” season, and it doesn’t rain very often. This means that the majority of people won’t have crops from their fields. No crops = no food. They go to sleep at night, hungry, and hope that there will be food the next day. They live one day at a time, its a struggle of survival.

What do I do?

I do what I can – Give what God has blessed me with, and give of myself. But is this enough? Not to change every child, but it is enough to change 1 child at a time.

In total, I’ve been in Kenya for 7 months, and I don’t think its ever quite hit me, like its hit me now that some of these children truly have nothing.

God is doing something to my heart. He’s breaking it again.


Plans for August

A mission(not sure of dates)

A camp in western Kenya – August 20-26

Makueni children visits – 1st or 2nd week in Sept.


Thank God for helping me adjust back to life

Thank God for health & protection

Pray for the Camp in Western – Wisdom for the teachers & provision for the camp

Pray for the Makueni visits – Wisdom & provision


God uses willing people. Am I willing? Are you willing?

If you feel God calling you to give towards any of the visits, here are the addresses, and say its for Charmaine and than what you want it to go for ie. Makueni visits.

Also if you are on facebook and what more info about ACMI, you can like their page. African Christian Mission International

“The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God, you will not despise.” Psalms 51:17

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