“I thought I had it all planned out. I had dreams and plans, but then I feel a somersault in my spirit. I close my eyes and I know I need to close the chapter with Operation Hope Sponsorship Program.
But “God, then what?”
God: “My daughter, do it by faith.”
I have been struggling with this for awhile now, but I knew it was time and I needed to obey or else I would be like Jonah. I needed to go home for a temporal visit to rest as I seek God for His next assignment.
In this struggle, God reminded me of Abraham’s call in Genesis 12: 1-4a
Now the Lord said to Abram, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you. And I will make of you a great nation, and I will bless you and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing. I will bless those who bless you, and him who dishonors you I will curse, and in you all the families of the earth shall be blessed.” So Abram went, as the Lord had told him.”
I felt God was telling me these same words and all He required of me was obedience. I imagined, Abraham had settled and was comfortable but when God say “Go”, he went in obedience. I imagined what people must’ve said and how he felt. Well, some people understood and others didn’t, but the overwhelming peace I had, spoke louder than all other voices.
When God closes one door, He will open another one, although it may not be the one you planned. I knew God was preparing me for the next assignment in children’s ministry. People admire those that know what they are called to, but honestly it’s a full package of the sweet and sour candies. Its fulfilling to see that sad, depressed child smile and the girl who has now turned into a young woman, excelling in university, but its heartbreaking to see the coffin of a sister who died to soon and when a girl cries as she relays what is happening at home. Child ministry is not easy, but when you know what God is using you to accomplish for His glory, it is worth it. It is an honor to serve God in this way.
One may say then “Why are you walking away?”. Good question. God is preparing me to take me to a higher level in children’s ministry and He wants me to rest as He is preparing the ground and me for the ground.
I think of it like a seed planted in the ground. Its alone, dark and maybe wet and it takes months to germinate and grow into a productive and beautiful plant. I have been planted, being prepared for a new ground.
So currently I am in the US with my sis who has a precious lil girl. I am having a wonderful time with my nephews and niece. There are no words that describe receiving a letter from one’s nephew and hearing another one saying your name for the first time. Special aunt – nephew moments.
But still I knew culture shock would not be easy. There is no water shortage, no need of wiping dusty or muddy shoes, no electricity power outages, no washing laundry by hand, no side to side hugs/greetings and I wonder what to think. I miss those friends that get me and have taught me so much. And I wonder do I belong?
And I begin missing my Kenyan home and the beautiful children.
But then God reminds me that He is not done with me yet and that He is preparing me for the next assignment. And the preparation for a task is not always what we would choose, but God has our best interest in mind. So that is what I hang on to.
I want to thank all of you who sacrificed your time to pray for me and your finances to fund God’s work. I do not take it for granted and I know God will bless you 100 fold.
“Whoever oppresses a poor man insults His Maker, but he who is generous to the needy honors Him.”
Well, you and I are only a vessel and God used you in different ways to be generous to God’s people who are less privileged – prayer, encouragement, visits and finances; so I am confident that you will be honored by God. May God richly bless you.
Keep looking back here for new updates cause this is only the beginning of God’s call on my life.